Tuesday, February 14, 2017

只剩你听我诉说爱情


一年又一年
时间真的就这样不知不觉流逝了

慢慢变老
生活也越来越平淡
似乎少了些什么

爱情似乎已离我而去

曾经的你也已属于她
那样的揭晓方式至今我都无法接受
心中永远留着那根刺

可是我已找不到借口联系你
我以为我们彼此都是一直为对方着想的那位
没有爱情,至少有着的是友情,我是这样觉得的
你是爱情之下,友情至上的那位

身边的朋友都说是我错了
不懂得珍惜眼前人

我没说什么
因为我知道是我错了,在爱情里
可是
在友情里,我一直都把你放在第一位

这几年身边不乏适合的对象出现过
但是
虽然你不是当下我心中要找的那位,我总会顾虑着你的感受
我一直都希望你比我先找到幸福

是的,你找到了
如果在当下,你亲口和我诉说你的她,我绝对会为你感到十分高兴

我无法接受那样的猜测方式
那样的揭晓方式

两年已过去
一年见一次面我都会觉得那么的不想

找了多少人诉说
听了多少人的开导
这心里的结
一。直。都。在




Monday, January 30, 2017

我的毕业论文-我的咖啡因

1月9号
我的咖啡没有很顺利生产出来
但是
毕业论文总算是产出来了

从一开始
选择这个题目
是因为对题目和对导师感到非常有兴趣
我喜欢咖啡,纯粹因咖啡而选择这个题目
我很懒惰,对不喜欢的科目,从不放心思,所以选择Dr. Farhan,看看能不能激发勤劳的DNA,hahahha
过程就不多说了,因为不想回忆,哈哈哈哈
整整4个月,几乎一有空,就是在实验室,让我现在非常抗拒实验。


不管怎样,我有一位很好的导师,她有很长的一段时间不在大学,那段时间也是我最痛苦的时候,做不到,也不知该怎么办,直到他回来,整个research才渐渐有好转。
Presentation 过啦,论文交啦,总算告一段落




化学工程始终不是我生命里所期待的,但是,我还是走到了不久后即将结束大学生涯的时刻


化学工程不是你们想像的成天呆在实验室,那是纯化学不是化学工程
化学工程不需要非常好的化学
化学工程可以在很多领域,不是你想的那么局限
化学工程危险吗,每一份工作都有危险,请别在听到化学工程就先摇头两下

再来
彭亨大学在未来是个不错的大学
请不要因为名字听起来很生疏就随意的对他下定论

彭亨大学虽小
但是该有的都有
在这里
我们让你知道什么叫7.50am起床,8am准时到班上上课
在这里
我们可以和其他科系的学生有有好的交情
在这里
化学工程有非常不错的教授

这篇文章其实是要献给看不起我们的你
欢迎对号入座






Wednesday, November 30, 2016

A story happened in SUMMER 2016



My summer started and ended with a story of a TEACHER.

A CHALLENGE GIVEN TO MYSELF

On 18th July 2015, I started my journey to Phnom Penh, Cambodia under the Project Cambodia Child Care. It was my first time to go abroad by myself. I actually had a hard feeling to go on this journey. I was a bit worried but at the same time, I was curious on what will be going to happen when I reached there.

CAMBODIAN lifestyle started after two hours flight.

Cultural Shock?? Yes, I experienced it once I reached. It was the first time I took a tuktuk (one of the transportation in Cambodia, it is similar to taxi in Malaysia).


He was the driver who fetched me when I reached airport Cambodia.
You can never imagine the traffic of Cambodia until you experienced it by yourself. Right after the tuktuk, I rode a motorcycle with a buddy named Sovanna to meet with others. I was shocked to see that there was not much traffic rule on the road, people chose to go on with their own way. It was kind of messy.

What I did as a teacher in Cambodia?

For the past six weeks, I taught in Rachna International School. It is not a school with international students. It is a school which provides English subject. I was a volunteer teacher there.
Soon after the meeting of allocating classes to teach, I started my teacher life there.
I taught three classes per day from morning 7.45am until 6.30pm. The students were divided into classes of different level. Some in the class of alphabet which learn ABC; some students in the class of starter which learn simple words whereas some in the class of simple grammar.
I faced quite a lots of challenges there. The BIGGEST challenge was language and communication problem. 
In Cambodia, Khmer language is their mother tongue. Most of them speak Khmer daily. For me, this was totally a new language for me. Students always spoke Khmer to me, but I did not understand at all. The English level of the students is very low that we cannot even use simple English to communicate.  Luckily, we had Khmer teachers to help us all the ways. I always feel so thankful to teacher Van, Teacher Chandy and teacher Chhorn. I learnt quite a few number of words from them. In a long run, I started to understand a bit of their words. Sometimes, I tried to use Google translate to express my meaning. Throughout these days, I found that body language and drawing were the best ways for me to communicate with them. 


Besides, I also faced the problem of how to deal with naughty students. Fighting always happened in my class, especially when my afternoon was almost all boys.
I always tried to figure out how can I solve these problem. At last, what I found out was being their friend instead of their teacher was the best ways to solve all the problem. This is because they will more willing to share the reason why they fight each other’s. In order to let them become a more patient person instead of fighting every day, I always prepared a lots of handcraft session during the free times. 








FOOD: One of my enjoyments and challenges in Cambodia

In Cambodia, people here ate a lots of vegetables. For me, I was a vegetable hater, I was quite picky in choosing the types of vegetables to eat. However, in order to adapt to the local life, I try a lot of food which I never dare to eat before, like bitter gourd.

Previously, I never cooked a meal. However, when I was in the school, our principal gave us a task which is prepare a meal from own country every Friday evening. This was really a big challenge for me because I do not have any experience in cooking. And because of this challenge, I found that my relationship with my mum became even better. We talked a lot through messenger about how to cook the dish. At the end, I was able to prepare that meal.

Bak kut teh from Malaysia


EXPLORING CAMBODIA: PHNOM PENH AND SIEM REAP

Central market in Phnom penh city, a place where you can buy souvenirs or try local food

Restaurant Friends, a place with nice food and souvenirs. All the purchase in this shop will directly help the poor community in Cambodia.


Mango fish


National Museum 
Killing field

Bread is one of the most frequent eat food in Cambodia







Visiting post office in Phnom penh and send out few post cards

Frog BBQ

Not the most famous, but its kinda nice to find such  a warm stall selling coffee inside Russian market


Famous Fish Amok

BBQ banana

Tuktuk, a very common transport in Cambodia

Angkor Wat one of the seven wonders of world








it's worth visiting and it's better to hire a tour guide to travel together
If there is a chance in the future, I would like to have a cycle tour inside Angkor Wat.

This is what happened during my second year semester break. One of my dream, to go to another country and live like a local. This is something worth to try, if you are now reading this, I would definitely recommend you to take a gap whether in weeks, whether in months or even a year to go on this journey. Be a traveler but not a tourist, you will realize at the end it will be  a fruitful journey. 

It was a journey which enable me to discover my limit, to discover what I want to achieve in this life.
It was a journey which I used up my hard earned money, however, it's worth taking.
It was a journey which I realized how blessed am I to have a comfortable living condition, focusing study without worrying anything regarding living requirements. (ps: I always complaining PTPTN is not enough, but this is nothing when compared to their real situation in Cambodia.)
It was  a journey which I tell myself not to become a person who pursue blindly for brand cloth, brand purse, bags, shoes and so on in the future, be a person who fulfill the need of life but not the wants of life.
It was a journey which I tell myself that I will start up a social enterprise in the upcoming 10 years, to earn money to sustain my family while making contributions to this society.







Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Every Experience Matter


When you think you wanna go for other countries, go for it
When you think you wanna share something for others, share it now
When you think you wanna change your attitude, change it now
When you wanna do something impactful, do it now!

It has been six months I take the role of director in this department which is named incoming Global Community Development Programme focus in Non-corporate Relations
It is a department which in charge to bring in exchange participant to join the local project in NGO centre.

I cannot feel impact until the first batch of exchange participants came in. They are Hisham from India and Rangga from Indonesia.


From the start of the project until the end, many things happened.
Arguing, feeling the job description not concrete, complaining and so on happened.
I still remember that night, the night before my first final exam start, I hold my book in front of laptop, listening to the problem and crisis faced by EPs.
I cannot concentrate in both things, cannot study and cannot help them to solve the problems. It was an intense night for me.

I always believe in exchange, exchange can change one person, can develop one person.
Until today I still believe in it!

And,
 at the end of this project, it proved to me that this believe do exists.
Especially happen to one of the exchange participant, Hisham.
Attitude changed, leadership developed!

I still remembered the moment before he left to airport, he cried again(he cried before many many times)
It's really touched my heart, friendship developed between us

I will continue this until the end of this term,creating impact to society, developing friendship between people from different countries and working for better project!

Thursday, January 15, 2015

顶着沉重的眼皮
死都不愿躲到被窝里

我还坐在电脑前
只因为今天结束了化学工程二年级的第一个学期

整整16天
每天窝在图书馆,只为大考拼了
说穿了又是一次临时抱佛脚

超过百条的formulas还在脑海旋转
不是开玩笑
这绝对是摧残岁月的一个科系

决心总是在大考时崛起
毅力只会存在于大考

下定决心
下个学期
不再临时抱佛脚

Monday, January 12, 2015

再度回来

多久没回来了,大一结束就不曾再写
就这样上了大二

忙碌的生活知道现在才再度想起我的部落格
话说是不小心看了某某的部落格,也怀念起自己的部落格

就想写些什么
大二过了一半,我又做了些什么

看看成绩,没有很好,努力挽救中

教授唤起了我想当一名工程师的小小决心
我不是理科的料,可是他的一句话却唤醒了我
“你的学习态度是可以成为真正的工程师”
从没想过这句话适合用在我身上
因为我就是文科的料,直到现在还深深的觉得

但是最近我真的有想当一名工程师,想要真正了解所有的概念
所以最近都抱着这种心态准备考试,我发现我过得开心一点 =)

我想在考试后理清我要的到底是什么
我不想盲目的做,盲目的参活动,却得不到想要的东西

自然地很多麻烦事让我变得很stress很容易毛躁
有时候,会很冷淡的回信息,有时连说话的力气都没有
做project做到哭这大概是生平第一件事
不过,很感激一个人
因为每次好像有麻烦都会找他,虽然他说他喜欢麻烦,可是就想不到可以找谁倾诉了
谢谢他给了我很多很多的解决办法,很强的分析总是帮到了我,问题都能一一解决
stress的时候毫无顾忌的对着他乱讲话也ok,因为他配合度及其的高!!!!
我只能说感激呀,这个sem比较好的朋友!真心地希望他在帮人之余,也能做到自己想做的事!!!

然后再感激另一名哥儿,马志兴
几乎studyweek都一起准备考试的哥儿!
有他在,三餐不担心,hohoho
对我来说他真的是很贴心的姐妹,喉咙痛的时候就有蜜糖喝,沮丧的时候就有加油字条与苹果还有充电器被贼人偷走后马上准备一个备用的给我!!!!
很高兴还有这样贴心的朋友存在我的大学生涯里

是时候回到书堆里头了~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Wednesday, July 30, 2014

有些事现在不做,一辈子都不会做了之white water rafting


自从彭亨洲国家公园的rapid shooting后,一直都很想尝试的water rafting, 我们终于如愿以偿在雪兰莪州玩到了!






一个看似非常危险的活动,但是其实做好安全措施,其实是非常好玩,刺激及安全的。





















在这过程中,我们还有机会体验独自从瀑布滑下,喝了不少水呢!










在这过程中,知道tour guide 的口号非常的重要。。

over left, over right, paddle forward , paddle backward, 还有最重要的就是sit in!!!!



感言:我真的觉得RM180 来这一趟真的很值得,毕竟如果现在不玩以后应该不敢玩了,哈哈



WHITE WATER RAFTING: KUALA KUBU BHARU, SELANGOR



逃离。城市中的喧哗






终于,远离所有的烦恼,远离所有接踵而来的任务。。

我们来到了一间坐落于大城市中却非常宁静的民宿。

《Back Home Hostel》







很热情的屋主在客人们的房门前写下客人的名字,很温馨!





房间也想宿舍一样,让一直希望可以一起上同一间大学的我们找到了同住一间宿舍的感觉












走着走着,从楼上的走廊,可以看得到楼下的餐桌,在几棵大树的衬托下,非常有大自然的气息!
很舒服很舒服,大伙儿都只想赖着不走,就连简单的早餐也格外美好 =)



BackHome Hotel (30 Jalan Tun H.S. Lee,50000 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia)
真的是个非常温馨,非常舒服,就像回到自己家里一样的民宿。如果还有机会, 必定会回到这里,5颗星!!!哈哈